Over the course of the past year and a half there have been many dark moments. Some I chose to never speak of again, as you can imagine when the heart gets broken and the mind gets low there are thoughts that enter your head that, while I recognize their severity, I am not too... Continue Reading →
It has been a while – Part one – My son………
It has been a while since last I sat down at this keyboard and wrote. It has been a while since I have had the mental bandwidth to confront the notion that things have changed and, while they are “good” changes, I have used them as excuses, as if they have taken up the parts... Continue Reading →
the time has come……..
I loved talking with her. I still do. She came up to pick up our youngest son after spending his February break with me. We went out to lunch, all the while she is saying that she needs to leave by a certain time to get back to her home, our previous home, and now... Continue Reading →
I was supposed to write the next post about the difficulty of being four hours away from my boys, about trying to figure out if the personal success that I have been having at work was worth the distance that I am away from them. About whether or not I should move back and take... Continue Reading →
The Formidable Mile….
The journey that I have taken over the course of the past two years has been one that at times has seemed directionless. Taking the proverbial one step forward only to take two steps back again. At times these steps seem to be tripping over themselves then stumbling either forward or falling backwards so the... Continue Reading →
I hope I am not my Dorian Grey.
The eyes that star back at me in the bathroom mirror are that of a stranger. I do not recognize this person. He might as well be a passerby glancing from a crowd wondering whom this man was walking down the street staring intently at the sidewalk. The eyes, the eyes that once looked upon... Continue Reading →
Riding the Wave,
There is no question that I have lived with depression the vast majority of my life. I find it hard to believe that most haven’t experienced this feeling whether they want to admit it or not, I just don’t see how it is avoidable. There were many moments where I have let it take me... Continue Reading →
All the falling pieces…..
Ever play that game where you sit and contemplate the existence you would have had had you not taken a right an hour ago and instead taken a left? The one where you dream up scenarios of maybe had you taken that left you would have been involved in some horrific accident or on the... Continue Reading →
Home is where the heart is…..
.....but what is it called when your heart is elsewhere? I told my two teenage boys as we were hefting large items up three flights of steps to my new dwelling that I never considered a structure a home. For me home was where the things I cared about were. It was where ever they... Continue Reading →
So long to the longing….
The light rises from Green to yellow. I am to yield or proceed with caution as I approach the busy intersection. I am too far away though to logically make it through. The path forward shows no obstacles that would prevent me from pressing down the gas pedal and blowing right throw the changing light... Continue Reading →
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